#Problems Fester

[sweettalkertime]

Don't Ignore The Problem

“Ignore it. It’ll go away.” Has anyone else been subjected to this line or a similar one in their lifetime? We’ve been conditioned to ignore problems in the hope that they will take care of themselves, thus allowing us to focus on better things. But you should never ignore the problem. Here’s why: 1: Problems Fester When you leave a cut alone, does it stop bleeding? “Oh, but those are…

[moonilit]

When you’re both hot you get sexualized to hell and back. When you’re both the favorite child and the sacrificial lamb. When you both have dysfunctional families. When you’re both royalty in chains bound by your fathers’ commands. When you both had to grow up in battle. When you both learn no one will save you but yourself yet you’re expected to save everyone else. When you’re both

[mouldycakes]

"There is something wrong with the way that I am built. I... I can't, uh, I can't just enjoy happiness like regular people, you know? [...] every time something good happens in my life, I... I just I think of when it's gonna end. That's all I can think about." - Danny (S04 E19)

Original HERE.

I saw it on Twitter and wanted to have it and suffer over here ;_; Transcript of the whole conversation in 4x19 + some thoughts:

Steve: She's pretty.

Danny: What?

Steve: Amber. Can tell she really cares about you, too.

Danny: Yeah, I'll probably screw it up like I do everything else. Right? Not in my DNA to be happy.

Steve: I didn't mean that. That's not what I meant. (Earlier, Steve had said: "Danny, if she (Amber) was the same age as you, you would come up with a different excuse, whatever you need, because you can't be happy. It's impossible for you; it's not in your DNA.")

Danny: No, I'm officially agreeing with you. There is something wrong with the way that I am built. I.. I can't, uh I can't just enjoy happiness like regular people, you know?

Steve: You don't think you're being a little hard on yourself?

Danny: No, I don't. When I was a kid, my parents would go out to eat dinner. And if they were late coming home, I used to imagine that they died in a car wreck, just 'cause they were 15 minutes late. And I used to talk to God and beg him. I said, "Please just take my dad, not my mom." 'Cause I couldn't live without my mom. I mean, every time something good happens in my life, I... I just I think of when it's gonna end. That's all I can think about.

Steve: (seriously concerned) You for real?

Danny: Yeah.

Steve: That's not normal.

Danny: I know it's not normal. Listen to this. On my wedding day, I'm looking at Rachel, just about to say "I do." And all I can see is the day she's gonna serve me with divorce papers. No joke. And I... I don't know, man. The only sustained happiness I ever felt in my life so far is Grace. And, you know, it's just a matter of time before she turns 18, and then she's out the door and she marries some schmuck. I don't know.

Steve: (serious) You got to change, man. You can't live like that.

Danny: Well, I'd like very much to change. It's just not so simple, you know?

-- after losing Billy, Rick(kinda), Grace, Meka, Matt, all the stuff with Rachel and her mother, Gracie being taken away from him almost 3? times, being used as spare parts for Charlie -because if he hadn't been sick, Danny would have never known Charlie was his son and wow if that isn't a punch to the gut-, being there for his mother and sisters when they need something and then they just go 'kay thnx bye' and disappear, all the brushes with death Steve's had, plus his own, plus the stress of worrying about everyone, plus being kidnapped tortured shot and afterwards being basically abandoned by his best friend while barely out of hospital unable to walk unassisted I'm also mad Steve didn't answer his text or his last words wtf Steve?! , not to mention the casual way Danny talks about killing himself through the seasons... and I'm pretty sure I'm forgetting some stuff! man, Danny needs therapy ;_; (and I need to rewatch :D)

EDIT: HOLY SHIT I forgot about Reyes and Colombia, what did all that go - they beat the sht out of him and the guilt he had (and boy if that's not a nice starter for Danny whump... they could have probably done something else and not just beat him up...)

I have lost count also of how many people spell it Columbia and not Colombia in fanfics; un saludo pa' mis hermanos latinoamericanos.

[toskarin]

miss Toskarin you’re not convincing me that Skyrim was the ruin of all western rpgs. In fact you’re convincing me that the issues began with oblivion.

I'd better be careful or else I might convince you of my less loudly-held beliefs

[bu-blegh-ost]

Gillion and Edyn devastate me because they both love each other so much and desire the same thing, but they both at the same time serve as narrative detriments to one another. This is a tragic story of two siblings aiming to achieve the same goal of reuniting but they end up drifting apart from each other instead.

Edyn thinks she knows Gillion. She is the one to experience first hand the damage done to him, and for the longest time she was the only one Gillion was truly able to connect with. But the truth is Edyn doesn't know her brother anymore. Edyn never got to be a sister. She never got to experience being annoyed with her little brother's antics, she never learned Gill's habits, his routines, what he likes and what he hates. All she got to see was the Child broken by the Cage he resides in. A broken child that needs to be comforted, a child she loves but doesn't understand. And even with all this she knew him best of all. They shared sorrow and suffering for years and the Bond formed from mutual anguish and pain was enough to form a connection and care. All Edyn knew for so long was that she loves her little brother and that she wants to be his sister. A real one, not just the reward, a relief from pain that he Has to earn.

And Gillion thinks he knows Edyn. To him Edyn was the connection to the world itself. To Gillion Edyn is wise, unwavwring and most importantly, always right. She knows what she's doing and of course she does. She Has seen things he Has never seen before and he trusts her unconditianally. He believes she would never ever lie to him, she is the one thing that keeps him grounded in this world, a reminder of why he needs to keep going. But just like Edyn, Gillion doesn't truly know his sister. He doesn't know her aspirations, her hopes, dreams and desires, he knows nothing about her life up to this point and what she's been doing, and it's not for the lack of trying either.

Both Gill and Edyn used to hide a lot from the other to protect their sibling. Just as Gillion would be vague about things he was going through during training, trying to make is seem like he is in much less pain than he truly is to spare Edyn from things she can't prevent, Edyn was hiding the truth about a lot of things from Gillion, including the truth about the lies he Heard from the Elders in fear of Gillion breaking under the weight of his trauma after realizing that all Has been for nothing.

This behavior continued throughout their entire relationship. A pair of people who love and cherish each other more than anything, yet the world keeps creating barriers between them, until there is just so much left unfelt and unspoken they feel the need to create more barriers themselves.

When Gillion finds out just how much Edyn was not telling him, how deep her involvement with the Navy, the Elders, the war, everything is, he is left worried, hopless, hurt and betrayed. But the most prominent feeling of all is guilt. Cause Gillion trusts Edyn with his entire heart, and yet she doesn't trust him back. She thinks he can't handle it, she thinks he can't know things and it's better to hide it from him just like she Has always been doing. She thinks it is better for him, but what she is really doing is making Gillion feel worthless. To Gill, Edyn is always right so she must have a reason. To Gillion Edyn is always right, so if she thinks of him as someone who can't be trusted with a secret, who will end up ruining things for her and getting in the way, then that must be what it is. And he wants to find her, to help her so badly but Edyn accidentally created this paralysing fear inside him that if he does, he is going to be exactly what Edyn thinks of him. And he so desperately doesn't want to be that, doesn't want to be a burden on her life anymore, more than he already is since whatever she is doing she is doing it for him. The least he can do is not get in her way.

And Edyn? She goes off on her own, trying to get Gillion home, but what she doesn't realize is that Gillion doesn't need a home anymore. Gillion found his home here with Jay and Chip. But that is not the home Edyn is fighting for. She fights for Gillion to be able to go back home to the Undersea, but even if she succeeds, this will never be a home to Gillion. Not anymore. There is too much distance, too much damage to repair 17 years of abscence, 17 years without him. There are no parents anymore for Gill, only familiar strangers, and coming back there and realizing just how little there is left for him there and how much he lost will only cause him more pain. But Edyn doesn't realize it. She doesn't know what Gillion wants because she stopped asking long time ago, assumimg it for him instead, believeing he is not capable of making decisions for himself. And maybe that was true before. But it isn't now. Edyn was so caught up in her own idea of Gillion and what he is that she completely missed her little brother growing up and changing. Getting wiser and more capable, drifting away from this portrait of a helpless child she Has gotten used to many years ago. And by neglecting to notice him and see him and hear him out, Edyn didn't realise that by leaving she have deprived him of the only thing Gillion truly wanted- his loving sister. Cause that is all Gillion truly needs. His rock to keep him steady, the only one who understood him, who was there on his worst days when the only thing he could do was break down in her arms. Back when she was the only thing worth lasting another day for. And now that he thought he got her back, that she is safe and sound, she Has ripped herself away from his life once more. This time willingly, and it hurts even more.

Neither of the siblings ever wanted to hurt the other, and yet they hurt each other anyway. Because there were people who made them believe they have to hide to keep the other Safe. And it is so sick and twisted that the two of them trying to keep the other sibling away from more hurt, is the very thing that keeps exposing them both to more danger, heartbreak and pain.

[figureitoutinthemorning]

Thinking about old vs new recording athena again, you’re so right about old athena “you’re alone” being a genuinely surprise to her. She didn’t realize she was alone until that very moment — it’s exactly how wolfy’s animatic portrays it — a genuine moment of shock and unexpected hurt. It’s like a “oh, I never thought of this. Shit, is he right?” Moment. Meanwhile for new athena it’s like. She’s always known this. And it’s always been a sore spot but it’s like a tacit agreement between Odysseus and athena to not mention the sore points of this relationship — they dont bring up Athena’s self-inflicted solitude or acknowledge that Odysseus’ attempts at befriending Athena have always been unreciprocated. But now that hes been hurt by the fact that she’s willing to cut him off just like that showing she never placed any importance on their friendship, he also brings up Athena’s unspoken sore spot to hurt her the way he’s been hurt.

New my goodbye is more of a tragic, messy breakup full of volatile emotions on both ends aiming to HURT each other the most, old my goodbye is almost more one sided — old athena mostly feels disappointment, disapproval, anger that he didn’t obey her, while Odysseus feels hurt and anger at her lack of compassion and lack of care for their relationship, while new Athena feels more conflicted emotions of sadness and anger even before Odysseus spoke — deep down she did see Odysseus as a friend, deep down it does hurt her to leave him, but she’s doing it anyway because of her pride, because of her reputation, because she thinks it’s the right thing to do. Whereas old athena genuinely never realized how much she liked Odysseus and how solitude hurt — until Odysseus pointed it out and she was forced to stew on those words for 10 years.

Yes, all of that!!!!

Also. Maybe I’m reading too much into it. But the old version of the ‘your dead friends can attest’ ‘Hey!’ ‘Put your emotions aside’ bit has different vibes to the new one.

In the old one, there’s something almost dismissive about it — ‘Why are you getting emotional about what I just said? Stop that, I’m trying to talk to you.’ I don’t think the ‘dead friends’ comment was really intended to hurt — it’s delivered almost like an observation, in a kind of throwaway manner.

But the new version… it’s like you said, it’s messier. In the new version, Athena sounds like she knows EXACTLY what she’s doing when she says that. It’s designed to hurt. And then she gets annoyed with Odysseus for showing the emotions she knew that line would provoke.

So. Yeah. In the old recording, I’m not sure Athena even realised she’d started an argument. She was fully expecting to monologue at Odysseus for a couple of minutes and then walk away. She wasn’t anticipating him shouting right back at her — and might even have been a little confused that his line of attack was so personal, sort of like, ‘I told you things that are objectively true* and you started yelling insults for some reason???’

Also. ‘I’m not looking for a friend.’ In the old version, I think she believes that. In the new version, she just says it to be cruel.

*At least, she thinks they are. The possibility that she might be wrong just doesn’t occur to her.

[scribblyshipping]

i wanna do more with my tadc s/i. however with each episode that comes out i feel like everyone except caine would Hate Her due to how she is as a character.

maybe she has an arc where she realizes that the escapism shes taking part in isnt okay and is driving her potential friendships away? but im not sure abt making any solid story plans until the series is done, but then that takes away part of the fun of doing self insert stuff (sometimes), so. idk. im stuck

[scarletkaoru]

To Rand, Moiraine is this effortlessly powerful woman who’s used to being in charge. She sweeps into his village, knowing everything already, and ruins his (and his friends) lives for the greater good. She’s always calm and in control, and always plans ahead. She wants to be in charge of everything he does and doesnt understand that hes struggling.

which is funny because moiraine is actually in way over her head. Shes given her whole life up to help Rand, and is now finding that all her carefully laid plans are failing. Nothing is what she expected, shes probably not making it out of this alive, and the one person shes doing this all for hates her and refuses to listen. theyre both desperate to have the other persons support and trust, but neither of them is willing to be the vulnerable one to ask for it.

Also, Lan is unique in that he knows just how isolated and overwhelmed Moiraine is, and so he sticks up for her when the others attack her. But rand sees this as Lan being Moiraines pet, because why else would he take her side. To rand, moiraine doesnt need any support, shes being taken down a peg for the first time in her life and can get used to it. (A bit of a class differences thing there actually where rand always feels like shes the Rich Noble Lady talking down to him). Thats not really the case though, so instead Rand does Lan a real disservice by assuming his feelings about Moiraine cant be based on anything solid. Like, lan’s known her for decades. Why do you think he still supports her?

[gwensy]

ok its like calm now mostly. im still probably not sleeping tonight nor will i unlock my door until he leaves for work in the morning

[qoldenskies]

Does the Hidden City have any therapists Dontron could seek in the future? Because God love em, these kids are trying but they are. *Kids*. And a horrifically traumatized & depressed rat dad

unfortunately they're not registered as hidden city citizens, probably dont have the money for it (it's not like donnie's. uh. capable of doing much right now), and have a history of being arrested and conspiring with criminals (draxum). although ive always kind of imagined draxum would receive a full pardon after the s2 finale and this would eventually be rectified, so there's a possibility! if they ever did it'd probably be around post-movie times. it'd be a whole process but i could definitely see them considering it.

[mer-se]

damn what’s in the air lately everyone’s fucking annoying and delusional. it’s time for the paragraphs .

[hananono]

admittedly i try not to go crazy with the activism posting bc im not like. doing activism either and i dont think posting is really a good substitute for that in anything meaningful way

[kohakhearts]

head in my hands like i miss him so bad [the blorbo i literally never stop thinking about]

[simplepotatofarmer]

my way of handling things anymore is make a vent post i delete in five minutes, block anything that was upsetting me, and move on.

[vamp--dad]

I think it's so extremely telling when te/rfs will criticise trans women if they post anything even remotely suggestive, including a selfie where they're showing more skin than a bare ankle, and cry out that they're sexualising womanhood and how a woman isn't defined by her attractiveness. Yet if a trans woman posts a selfie where she's covered up and just enjoying life, those same people scream in her mentions saying she isn't attractive and they wouldn't sleep with her.

It's almost like they're parroting the same agenda that the feminists of not even ten years ago were fighting.

[mrmorphea]

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